"Life can be magical and griefy at the same time," Billie Lourd wrote.
Billie Lourd is remembering her mother Carrie Fisher, six years after her passing. While the previous years have been pretty difficult for the Ticket to Paradise star to come to terms with reality, she is "joyful" for her now. In a recent post on Instagram, Lourd shared a sweet throwback photo of her and her mother when Lourd was younger. The actor reflected on the experience of grief along with motherhood.
"It has been six years since my Momby died (feels like 2 but also like 705 at the same time?). And unlike most other years since she's died, this year, these past two weeks have been some of the most joyful in my life," Lourd wrote, who welcomed daughter Jackson Joanne Lourd Rydell on December 12. "Giving birth to my daughter and watching my son meet her have been two of the most magical moments I have ever experienced."
She added, "But with the magic of life tends to come to the reality of grief. My mom is not here to meet either of them and isn't here to experience any of the magic. Sometimes the magical moments can also be the hardest." Though she wishes that her "Momby" was around, she isn't but she has her kids to turn to. Lourd wrote, "So all I can do is hold onto the magic harder, and hug my kids a little tighter. Tell them a story about her. Share her favorite things with them."
For others going through grief, the actor said that it is better not to ignore their pain and also reminded them that they are not alone. Lourd concluded, "For anyone out there experiencing the reality of grief alongside the magic of life, I see you. You are not alone. Don’t ignore either. Life can be magical and griefy at the same time."
Lourd shares daughter Jackson with actor Austen Rydell and the couple also have a son named Kingston Fisher who was born in 2020.
Fisher, popularly known for her role as Princess Leia from the Star Wars franchise died suddenly after suffering cardiac arrest, on December 27, 2016. She was 60 at the time. The following day Fisher's mother, actress Debbie Reynolds also died from a stroke. Since then, Lourd has been open on social media about her grief and how she has coped with the loss of her mother—whom she called "Momby"—and her grandmother.
As per PEOPLE, Lourd paid tribute to her mother on her 66th birthday, "I woke up this morning feeling like I should write some longwise grief advice caption like I know what the f--- I'm talking about. But then I realized even after 6 years I still have no formula or map on what to do on days like these," wrote Lourd at the time. "You can never be an expert in grief. It is forever changing - the ultimate shapeshifter. And you never feel like you know exactly what to do or feel. And that's okay. Whatever you feel is okay. Sending my love to all the griefers (yet another billie lourd petition to make this a real word) out there. You are not alone."
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