Lourd said that she missed her mom, Carrie Fisher, but added that she has gotten stronger with each passing year.
There's no timeline to grief and everyone processes it in their own way. It's been five years since Carrie Fisher passed away and her daughter, Billie Lourd, is still processing her mother's loss. Lourd posted an incredibly sweet photo with her mother on Instagram and also paid tribute to her with a rendition of Fleetwood Mac's Landslide, which was a personal favorite for their family. "We loved to sing. We loved Fleetwood Mac. We loved this song," she wrote, reported Comicsands. Carrie Fisher will forever be Princess Leia from the Star Wars saga for many of us but apart from her brilliant acting career, she was also a writer.
Lourd is currently in Australia filming Ticket To Paradise alongside George Clooney and Julia Roberts and decided to share an old picture of herself with her mother, Fisher, and an adorable koala. She also interpreted grief and how different people had different ways of processing it. "People always ask me what stage of grief I’m in. And my answer is never simple. I’m in a different stage of grief in each moment of every day. My grief is a multi-course meal with many complicated ingredients. An amuse-bouche of bargaining followed by an anger appetizer with a side of depression, acceptance for the entree, and of course a little denial for dessert. And that’s how grief should be—all things all at once—actually there is no “should” in grief—grief just is whatever it is for you and that is how it 'should be.'”
She noted that it was December 27 in Australia and added that many in America would be seeing the post on December 26. "For anyone wondering why I’m posting this on the 26th it’s the 27th here down unda (aka Tomorrowland) so what better thing to post for my Momby’s Australian death anniversary (4 words I never thought I’d be putting next to each other?!?) than this picture of her and I with a koala!?" she captioned the nostalgic photo.
She also posted a musical tribute along with Mady Dever and Kaitlyn Dever, covering Fleetwood Mac's Landslide. "It has been 5 years since my Momby died. On days like this I like to be with people I love (big shout out to these literal and vocal angels @kaitlyndever and @madydever ❤️ I love you both more than any Instagram words could ever express) and to do something we loved to do together. We loved to sing. We loved Fleetwood Mac. We loved this song. It echoed in our living room throughout my childhood, playing slightly too loudly as she scribbled her marvelous manic musings on yellow legal pads."
Lourd explained that she had something of an identity crisis after her Mom passed away. "I didn’t know who to be or what to do after my mom died. I was afraid of changing because I had built my life around her. Then she was gone. And I had to rebuild my life without her. And it wasn’t (and still isn’t) easy. But time has made me bolder. I never stop missing her but I have gotten stronger with each passing year. And if you’re going through something similar time will make you bolder too. Sorry for this cheesy lyric analysis. But it’s true!!! Sending all my strength to anyone in the #griefgang who needs it," she wrote in an emotional post.
A day after losing her mother in 2016, her grandmother Hollywood legend, Debbie Reynolds also passed away. Lourd celebrated her grandmother's death anniversary with a picture of the three generations of actors.
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