"I had an honest conversation with God, and I told him how I felt. I was hurt," admitted the pop star.
Carrie Underwood opened up about the recent harrowing string of setbacks and disappointments, which she overcame. The Before He Cheats hitmaker spoke with Tracy Smith of CBS News’ For The Record. Underwood is only 40, but she has already achieved success throughout her entire life. She has a voice that has been dubbed the finest of her generation, 64 million recordings have been sold, and she has received seven Grammy awards. The singer now revealed the pain she and her husband, Mike Fisher underwent and overcame together.
In The Wrestle, the second episode of the couple's online series Mike and Carrie: God & Country, they break down as they discuss their tragic losses while attempting to grow their family as reported in ET Online. The pop star got married to NHL hockey player, Mike Fisher, in 2010 had a son named Isaiah, launched the Calia fitness wear brand, and discovered how to love her fame and everything that came with it. But life dealt her a curve right when everything appeared to be going smoothly as she disclosed she suffered a series of miscarriages. "In the beginning, it was like, 'Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn't your timing. And that is all right,” she consoled herself then.
“We will bounce back and figure our way through it.' And got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn't work out. Got pregnant again, in early 2018. Didn't work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, 'Okay, like, what's the deal? What is all of this?'” She shared how the pain of losing her fetus a second time felt. After their second miscarriage, Underwood remembered that her husband had a premonition and informed her that they were going to have another child, and his name would be Jacob.
"And throughout the whole process, you know, I'm writing and, like, literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I'd have a writing session, I'd be like, 'Let's go. You know, I can't just sit around thinking about this. Like, I wanna work, I wanna do this,'” expressed the American singer as she recalled the tough times and how they affected her writing. Underwood remembered that she had "had enough" at that time. "I had an honest conversation with God, and I told him how I felt. I was hurt. I was a little angry and, of course, you feel guilty for being mad at your creator," she admitted.
"And I told him we needed something. We needed to have a baby or not, ever, because I couldn't keep going down that road anymore," she continued telling the outlet. Fortunately, the doctor then assured her that everything appeared to be in order. On January 21, 2019, the couple gave birth to their second child, whom they named Jacob. Jacob’s birth strengthened the couple’s relationship with each other to a great extent as admitted by the couple.
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