He still doesn't know how he is because he says it is all very new to him and he has not come to terms with it.
Duane Dog Chapman, the bounty hunter, was reduced to tears while doing his first interview after his beloved wife Beth Chapman passed away. The macho man just broke down while speaking to Entertainment Online's Kevin Frazier about his life after Beth. She passed away on June 26 to throat cancer. She had been struggling for years and fighting for her life.
When the host asked him how he was doing, Duane did not seem to be in a good place. He is still aggrieved and mourning his partner in catching the bad guys. "In a new experience that you have, you don't know how you doing because you have never experienced it. I have a lot of people depend on me. All my supervisors said 'Dog, it's time you man up.' So, I am trying," he said.
When Kevin asks him that given that he lost his life partner is manning up in this situation really possible, Duane said, "Yes, there is". He doesn't dismiss his grief and instead said that he was a cry baby because of his heritage.
"I can cry talking about crying. I sob," he said, adding that it was difficult to make decisions when he was inconsolable, but he had no choice. He may have lost his wife but he still has to make decisions, no matter how hard it is. "You can't use it as an excuse" to not make the decisions, he says. For him, manning up isn't about getting over his grief but "facing it. Taking over it." He broke down while talking about how he is feeling right now.
Beth's last wish was to be cremated and scattered partly, and to be preserved partly. The host asks Dog what was inside the pink box in his living room and the bounty hunter says, "I have never done ashes in my life but she wanted it. To put it on the fireplace or something. It's morbid. She said scatter some and put some on the fireplace. When I die, she wants me in the box with her. I will... I was scattering it and I was like I can't throw you away. I can't do that."
He is not prepared to let her go anytime soon. He still wakes up and doesn't remember that she is gone, he said. "It can be morbid but I haven't gotten past the place where I am putting a pillow where she was and covered it up like a jailhouse escape. Then I wake up and see it and it doesn't register that it's not her... I'm still there," he said, as he tears up again.
The Chapman family was dealt a blow when they lost their matriarch. The family wanted her fans to be able to tell her goodbye one last time so her memorial will be held on July 13 in Colorado. It will be at the Heritage Christian Center 14401 E. Exposition Avenue Aurora. The doors will open at 1:00 pm and the service will start at 2:00 pm.
Her entire family has still been trying to come to terms with their loss. Her daughter Cecily recently shared a tribute to her by doing up her nails the way her mother would have liked it. Beth loved to get her nails done and her loving family sent her off with perfectly done nails.