Kelly Clarkson Says She "Can't Even Imagine" Getting Married Again Amidst Brandon Blackstock Divorce

Divorce is not an easy process to go through. There's a lot of pain involved, and coping to be by yourself again is not easy. Once you're in the midst to sort out all those intense emotions, it's hard to even imagine finding love again. For Kelly Clarkson, she's not focussing on the latter any time soon. The  American Idol star married Brandon Blackstock in October 2013 and filed for divorce in Los Angeles in June 2020. The pair share two kids together, daughter River Rose, 6, and son Remington Alexander, 4. On an episode of The Kelly Clarkson Show, the singer confessed to guest Gwyneth Paltrow that she "can't even imagine" getting married again. As for the Goop founder, Paltrow has been married to Brad Falchuk since September 2018. She had split from Coldplay singer Chris Martin in 2014; they share two children, daughter Apple, 16, and son Moses, 14, reports ET Online.

"You’ve been married for two years," Clarkson, 38, said to Paltrow on the show. "Coming from someone who's literally amidst a divorce, I can't even imagine doing it again. So that's amazing that you found love, and you found the space and the vulnerability -- that level to say yes, and do it again. Was that hard for you?" Paltrow confessed that it was "probably the hardest thing I've ever done." "Allowing myself to learn the lessons that I needed to learn from my divorce and then being able to really kind of do that work on myself and then open myself up again," the 48-year-old explained. "And my husband, he requires that kind of presence and intimacy. It was really hard for me. I wasn't good at it before. I still struggle with it." "But you will have it again, Kelly," she added. "It just takes time." The Stronger singer is in a better place right now, she said, adding that she is happy to be focusing on herself during this time.

Throughout her marriage, Clarkson had been very vocal about her love for her husband at the time. The Voice judge confessed that she never felt a strong sexual attraction to anyone else. "This isn't a downer to anybody I dated before him, but I’m just going to be real: I never felt like, honestly, sexually attracted to anybody before him," Clarkson said during a 2017 SiriusXM interview, reports PEOPLE. "And I'm not downing my exes, you know, everybody’s different. But there was something about him." Clarkson added, "I honestly thought I was asexual — I’d never been turned on like that in my whole life. I was like, ‘Oh that’s that feeling … okay!'"

The host of The Kelly Clarkson Show met the music manager at a rehearsal for the Academy of Country Music Awards in 2006 and got engaged six years later in 2012. In an earlier interview with Redbook magazine, Clarkson also brought up the former couple's intimate life and how happy they were together. “Any time we’re in a discussion about sex with a bunch of couples, Brandon and I stay pretty quiet. To keep it family-appropriate, let’s say we’re just a lot more active than other couples. I’m a person who loves change. He loves spontaneity. Having a set time or place [to have sex] would be boring to us," said she. Clarkson also claimed that she found in Blackstock something that she had never experienced before, "When I met Brandon, I wasn’t looking for a friend. I have a lot of great friends! I was looking for a lover. I had never found someone I was truly passionate about, who I wanted to stay in bed with all day."

But now Clarkson is turning all that pain and heartbreak into something creative. While speaking to ET last month, Clarkson said she had already written approximately 60 songs since filing for divorce from her partner. "I have this record that we're working on. It's really great and really honest," Clarkson said. "There's just a lot of questions that I have to answer before releasing it for myself, you know? Whether that be business-wise or personally or whatever. Whatever happens though, it is such a gift. Like, I don't know how anybody, I'll just be real with you, goes through grief like divorce, any kind of grief, any kind of loss, without having an outlet like this.... I have written like 60 songs, it is an insane amount of getting it out. I think that's a blessing in itself," she continued.

References:

https://people.com/music/kelly-clarkson-files-divorce-brandon-blackstock/

https://www.etonline.com/kelly-clarkson-says-she-cant-even-imagine-getting-married-again-amid-brandon-blackstock-divorce

https://www.redbookmag.com/life/friends-family/a13533264/how-kelly-clarkson-found-her-joy/

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